I did some suffering as you can read on this website. I think that infertility was the worst part, but maybe the panic attacks were in the running. Oh not sure. Oh PMS was the worst though. Ha ha, I do not know now. I do not dwell on the past, but look forward. I do write though so in hopes to help you you reading.
I had a ton of them for a few years. It was a result of so much turmoil in my life. It came to a head, scared me and depressed me. Would I ever be healthy? Would I be able to take care of my children?(we adopted). Life seemed so bleak! I had most everything I wanted in life- a husband, owned my own business, a house, 2 beautiful children, but not my health!
What started them was low blood sugar attacks as I am hypoglycemic, but truly that was not the cause of them. It was more my mind that took over. I lived in fear of the unknown. I think that was what really scared me-the unknown.
For those who had the attacks-you know what I am talking about. Frozen in fear, trembling, dizzy, a feeling of being in another world and out of control. Spaced out and sometimes I could not even speak-I was so scared. I did not even tell my husband about them as I thought I was going crazy. Just ME AND FEAR. I think this is hell.
The bathtub was my friend. The hot water calmed my nerves and stopped the shaking. I was scared to go places in fear of one coming on. One happened at my sisters house. I said to her "Can I get in your bathtub?" Yes she thought I was acting a bit strange! I just told her that I did not feel well and a bath would help.
I had NO interest in medicine. I had been to enough Drs. in my life. You know I am an endo girl...
So this is what brought me to Christ. It was either submit and surrender to Him or go crazy. He was calling me. Thankfully I chose Him! I needed to learn now to rely on Him and stop relying on myself!
He promised me one night that they would never happen again. This was after I surrendered and "believed"(I read the book of John-4th book of the new testament, that is when I understood). Strange how we can hear his voice even though it is not audible. I heard it clearly. One day, I started to have the initial panic feeling again-I cannot quite remember now exactly how they would start. I think it just started with a fearful thought and then it would progress. So I had that intitial thought and "Oh No!" I got scared and started to shake. I was all alone in my house and fell to my knees and put my face on the floor saying" You promised me it would never happen again!"
Immediatly it was gone! Amazing. It is hard for me to put into words the way that I felt. I felt the Lord's prescense. I knew what was going on. That I needed to give up myself. I will never forget how he was with me and how he still is with me though trials. It is strong. It is beyond words....It has been about 6 years or so and not one panic attack or fear like I used to have since. It has been an amazing journey!
The great physician! Lord Almighty! Maker of heaven and earth. Great power in the message of the cross. Thank you Jesus!
Great scripture below. Wow that is how I felt..Just like Paul and I felt that I was going to die. I learned to rely on Christ just as Paul did! I just found this scripture after I wrote the above. It was truly my life. I was brought up in "religion" and relied on myself and my goodness to get to Heaven which does not work!!! I was the ultimate "I am woman hear me roar" type of girl who needed no one. Just ask my husband, he will tell you. Ok, I think that he tries to forget. He is a New Creation in Christ now also!
God sure is so totally amazing to bring this scripture!
May God our Father and the Lord Jesus Christ give you his grace and peace. All praise to the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. He is the source of every mercy and the God who comforts us. He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When others are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us. You can be sure that the more we suffer for Christ, the more God will shower us with his comfort through Christ. So when we are weighed down with troubles, it is for your benefit and salvation! For when God comforts us, it is so that we, in turn, can be an encouragement to you. Then you can patiently endure the same things we suffer. We are confident that as you share in suffering, you will also share God's comfort. I think you ought to know, dear brothers and sisters,about the trouble we went through in the province of Asia. We were crushed and completely overwhelmed, and we thought we would never live through it. In fact, we expected to die. But as a result, we learned not to rely on ourselves, but on God who can raise the dead. (2 Corinthians 1:2-9)
Phl 3:8-9 Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the priceless gain of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I may have Christ and become one with him. I no longer count on my own goodness or my ability to obey God's law, but I trust Christ to save me. For God's way of making us right with himself depends on faith.
Your Pain Can Bless Hurting People
by Randy Becton
I have discovered an amazing truth, something you probably already knew a long time ago! You can use your pain as an avenue of God’s blessing for someone else in great emotional pain. You can give compassion and briefly tell a person what has helped you the most in a dark, dark time. Again and again we’ve seen God take what was horrible in my life and reach a hurting heart through us.
In fact you can light a faith candle to light the soul of another sufferer. I know because of my battle with cancer in 1973, 1974 and 1975 and then a second major battle in 1981 and 1982. By the merciful powerful hand of God I was healed. And during these times I watched in amazement as God used Camilla and me to make a difference in another sufferer’s life. Again and again we’ve seen God take what was horrible in my life and reach a hurting heart through us. Praise His name and all glory and honor is due to God and Him alone.
How about the painful experiences of your life right now? Have they made you more willing to hold the hand of a fellow struggler? I’m sure the answer is yes!
and the other pages on the site like "coping articles".